I miss you, lovers
Come back, all of you
And let me take my pleasures like I used to do
Forget the end and spiral back to the beginning
Where memories waited fresh like flowers in plastic at the grocery store
All spangled with cold water and neon light
Come back, my lovers and tell me again for the first time
I miss your finer moments-
I miss mine
It was a long while ago
And like a novel,
I will re-read you, and if it's been long enough,
Perhaps we can forget the ending?
Please, come back lovers
Let's tell stories
Let's surprise each other
I remember your black eyelashes and green eyes
And your freckled shoulders
And your laugh
I remember
Before you belonged to someone else
Before, I was someone else
Roll back the river
Erase my lies,
these lines beneath my eyes
Oh my lovely loves
We should have done better the first time
We should have done it all better the first time

My best emails:

On 10/29/03 4:09 PM, "Soto, Vanessa B" wrote:

hello
my headache is a mile-high storm cloud of shrimpy pink and mango orange sprouting sizzling lime lightning and looming over a landscape of sad, bilious greenish-gray avocado. in fifty-eight minutes I can go home, and I'll call you so we can chat for a while, if you like. meantime, edit credit memo written by venezuelan Tanya. intense.
i'll go talk to the moaners, who have been creating an eBay ad for me. they tell me i'm going to make them rich. they also say 'snake!'
NWOT and available at a superlow reserve,
Vanessa

On 10/30/03 3:08 PM, "Soto, Vanessa B" wrote:


i try to get the self-loathing out of the way while i am awake. spreading the lord's word? well, i'm smiling. what would a good Lord's word be?
they won't let me take Monday afternoon off. in fact, someone asked me this morning whether there are conference rooms on the 15th floor, and i said " How would I know? I have to tell someone when I'm going to the ladies' room." that might've been a bit gruff.
but the assistants, the analysts, the admins, the lowly ones who rise at dawn to change the copy paper and refill the toner cartridges!
when will my people be free?

-----Original Message-----
From: Vanessa
Sent: Wednesday, June 02, 2004 9:52 AM
To: Dean; Rick
Subject: RE: fyi


not even punctuation could save that one-


-----Original Message-----
From: Dean
Sent: Wednesday, June 02, 2004 9:46 AM
To: Vanessa; Rick
Subject: RE: fyi


is the fish speak

-----Original Message-----
From: Vanessa
Sent: Wednesday, June 02, 2004 9:45 AM
To: Rick; Dean
Subject: RE: fyi


Excellent. Perhaps then you will be able to keep Mandelbrot and Reimann straight.
Blub, blub, blub,
v

-----Original Message-----
From: Rick
Sent: Wednesday, June 02, 2004 9:38 AM
To: Vanessa; Dean
Subject: RE: fyi


So far I only have 37 megaGf of piscomputing power - I'm hoping I'll get that promotion so that I can move up to the 50 MGf class of parallel goldfish processing power...

-----Original Message-----
From: Vanessa
Sent: Wednesday, June 02, 2004 9:34 AM
To: Rick; Dean
Subject: RE: fyi


Why 21 and not 20? Are your goldfish so poor they need an extra round, Evans?

-----Original Message-----
From: Rick
Sent: Wednesday, June 02, 2004 9:32 AM
To: Dean; Vanessa
Subject: RE: fyi


Can we at least play 21 questions? That would give the goldfish a chance to kick in...

-----Original Message-----
From: Dean
Sent: Wednesday, June 02, 2004 9:31 AM
To: Rick; Vanessa
Subject: RE: fyi


3rd

-----Original Message-----
From: Rick
Sent: Wednesday, June 02, 2004 9:30 AM
To: Dean; Vanessa

Subject: RE: fyi


[deafening silence]

Point of information - which of the following is an accurate interpretation your punctuationless phrase below:

What? Do you think I am stupid?
What do you think? I am stupid.
What do you think I am, Stupid!

Fractal grammar.

-----Original Message-----
From: Dean
Sent: Wednesday, June 02, 2004 9:25 AM
To: Rick; Vanessa
Subject: RE: fyi


what do you think i am stupid

-----Original Message-----
From: Rick
Sent: Wednesday, June 02, 2004 9:24 AM
To: Dean; Vanessa
Subject: RE: fyi


yes - but the boundary of the Mandelbrot set has complexity of infinite resolution - fractal...

-----Original Message-----
From: Dean
Sent: Wednesday, June 02, 2004 9:22 AM
To: Rick; Vanessa
Subject: RE: fyi


thx...but i have already determined that it does not go to infinity but stops where the modulus of Z is greater than 2?

-----Original Message-----
From: Rick
Sent: Wednesday, June 02, 2004 9:21 AM
To: Dean; Vanessa
Subject: RE: fyi


courtesy of the university of Utah...

http://www.math.utah.edu/~alfeld/math/mandelbrot/mandelbrot.html#applet

-----Original Message-----
From: Dean
Sent: Wednesday, June 02, 2004 8:11 AM
To: Rick; Vanessa
Subject: RE: fyi


Does one of the sequences in mandlebrot set go to infinity...and if not, how far does it go?