sparkly with denial

like coal, i resist,
and my hard black center
is the backlash of gravity,
the impurity of spirit.
looking closely you will note
that my inclusions are exclusions
my flaws are in relief
my false color, an overdose of
flourides and sulfur.
army world, you're making indestructible
shatterings of me.
my foaming black life
into stark formality
in crystal facets.
no engagement ring or
weeping innocent tears,
but a navel ornament
for a trophy queen.

i refuse to be blamed for what's been
wrought of me.